Astroesque

I recently watched Attack On Titan after putting it off for years. I had watched the first two seasons about like 3 years ago (???) if I remember correctly. But for some reason I never got to finishing the last two seasons. I think it’s because the second season had me fixated on Ymir, Reiner, and Bertholdt being Titan shifters, so when the third season starts off with the whole Kenny storyline and becomes more focused on stuff happening within the walls I think it just threw me off guard. Plus, I was sixteen and overall less patient with fiction and my attention span was absolutely terrible. But now, as an almost 20 year old, I wanted to give the story a second chance. I had seen glimpses here and there on online fandom spaces that mentioned how much they loved the world building and twists of the aot storyline and tbh it started giving me huge fomo lol. Not to mention that I had this mutual on TikTok and insta who constantly posted about Eren and Mikasa (them as a ship) and as a former intense shipper, (I had a whole tumblr blog for my fave ships when I was like 12) I was curious if their ship could captivate me as much as it captivated others. Especially since I really haven’t been immensely interested in fandoms, characters, or ships in quite a while. I have had more free time recently (or maybe just better time management skills) so I decided to really give it all a go. I started rewatching early February, I finished it two days ago. So basically it took me about a month to watch the whole thing and honestly that genuinely shocks me… I am usually very slow paced with watching shows because I sometimes get disinterested halfway through but that did not happen this time around. Funnily enough, I would now say season 3 and season 4 of aot are my fave seasons of the show.

My favorite part of season 3 and 4 of aot is definitely the worldbuilding. I ended up really liking Kenny Ackerman and his story. Learning about why some people were obsessed with the walls was really cool too. I think something that especially captivated me was Grisha’s story. His baby sister, his life in Marley, how Eldians were treated outside of Paradis, everything about it was so cool. For years I have wondered what lies beyond the walls. Idk but it’s low-key kinda funny how I have been held in suspense for so long because I stopped watching the show for years that I genuinely appreciate knowing the truth about everything even more than someone who probably just watched the show once without stopping for years idk. ALSOOOO I genuinely have a hard time hating characters so you will not see me saying anything properly negative about Gabi, I understand her so I just can’t hate her. I really love all the Marley kids tbh but I find it so sad their lowkey self hatred. And if I’m being completely honest, as much as I like Annie as a character, I fully understand why Levi could not get himself to forgive her. I honestly feel so bad for him especially tbh, like all the people he cared for most died <///3

Moving on to my thoughts about the main characters, I just wanna say that I absolutely adore Armin. I love his character introduction, his philosophies of life, his hopes and dreams. He is probably my fave, I just love him so much. Realistically if I was in the aot world he would be my bestie I just know itttt. I have no proof,,, but I have no doubts either… I honestly relate to him in a lot of aspects. His fear, his inability to fight physically, how he relies on his mind and his words. After he becomes the colossal titan, seeing how he struggles with feeling deserving of still being there makes me so sad like I wanna hug himmmm lol. I understand that everyone misses Erwin but Armin was equally deserving of being there imo :(( Moving on to my thoughts on Mikasa,,, I would say I really like her character. She’s strong, stubborn, and tough but she’s also soft, kindhearted, and an absolute lovergirl. I think that’s really cool to see. Something that especially fascinated me was seeing her devotion and love be put into question. Why is she so protective over Eren? Why is she so devoted to him? Is it out of gratitude? Is it because she’s an Ackerman? Or is it because she’s in love with him? Idk I just like that it’s questioned. It is one of the driving forces of the plot. Her love brings about closure to the entire story. And I like to see her battle with it. Something so innate in her heart eventually brings her so much turmoil, makes her question reality and the what ifs. I really like that. As for Eren, my thoughts on him are quite mixed for obvious reasons lollll. I’m nglll I found him really annoying at first. But tbh I have the exact same reaction to most sx4 characters (typology mentioned ^o^ !!!!) I do like how eventually he cooperates with the scouts and seeing how much he cares for the people in Paradis (maybe a little too much hehehehehehe) But after seeing his character shift as he is cursed with memories of the past, present, and future, I liked the fact that at first I was as confused as Armin and Mikasa probably were. I think that even though I do not relate to people like Eren, people who constantly crave more, are never satisfied, and have lots of anger in their hearts, it is cool to see it all unravel. Sometimes a deep dissatisfaction in people’s hearts lead them to do terrible and inexplicable things, even at the expense of the people around them and their loved ones. I would say that this is a big lesson I have learned throughout the years. I don’t relate to Eren, but I do understand the escalation of his dissatisfaction and his yearning for freedom. Also I did wanna mention that he reminds me so much of Anakin from the Star Wars prequels :333

Eren after killing 80 percent of humanity 😻

And now… The moment we have all been waiting for …😽 Did I end up shipping eremika as much as I was hoping to…? The answer is yes :333 But I would like to preface that I almost always like morally grey characters, ships, dynamics, etc. Idk why but I’ve always been like this. I just love when something is psychologically complex and debatable. And I wouldn’t necessarily say shipping Eren and Mikasa is particularly controversial, but honestly fandom spaces recently have been a bit judgy and annoying. Like me liking them together does not really represent who I am as a person, it does not imply that I excuse toxicity or whatever else it may be irl. Anywayyyy!! There is a lot of aspects of the ship that I really love. I think a major one is that ultimately Mikasa is who has the power to stop the destruction Eren brings to the world. Whether it could’ve been by her confessing her love to him and running away with him, or by being the one who finally kills him and puts him out of his misery. I love when ships drive a plot in some way it just makes them more special to me :333 In a way, I think that they are the ones who truly free Ymir and Ymir’s subjects, like not just literally but figuratively lol. I think they were the only two people who could get to Ymir and truly understand why she kept going for so long. I love the cabin au it’s so sweet. The fact that the canon gives us an au storyline is adorable lollll. I like to think that in those moments and that reality that Eren created for him and Mikasa, they come to terms and peace with the fact that ultimately she will be the one to end him. I think that’s why in the scene where she kills him he looks so serene and she looks at him with so much love. They had accepted their fate. But anyway yes I just really love their story, especially the ending, I loveeeee tragic endings muahahahaha! Also the angst edits of them are absolutely beautiful <//3 But I’m ngl I think my fave relationship of all is their friendship with Armin. The three of them are the most beautiful relationship of the whole story :,,)

Anywayssss here’s the TLDR for whoever didn’t feel like reading everything ^^ >:P